Maybe I shouldn't be that realistic.. after all.

Juli 2012 schreef ik iets over realistisch zijn en over dat ik juist zoveel wilde doen en zoveel dingen wilde maar ik ook realistisch moest zijn en ik niet al mijn dromen waar zou kunnen maken. Ik scheef ook over mijn perfect man: 'Ik wil in Parijs wonen met een hopeloos romantische Fransman, in een appartement in het centrum met een balkonnetje waarvan je de Eiffeltoren kunt zien.' Dat is hoe dan ook niet uitgekomen tot nu toe, ik zou echt niet weten hoe ik dat nog niet voor elkaar heb kunnen krijgen ahum. Maar het ging erom dat ik juist zo graag iemand wilde die hetzelfde beeld over romantiek had als ik, vandaar hopeloos romantisch. Waarom ik een fransman wilde weet ik eigenlijk niet, ik vind franse mannen eigenlijk helemaal niet zo leuk. 

But as time passes and we get older, we learn some things. Zo heb ik geleerd wat echte onvoorwaardelijke liefde is. Maar dat is niet wat mij verbaasde. Ik heb namelijk ook geleerd wat echte romantiek is: echte romantiek is wanneer je vriend je niet mee kan nemen naar Parijs, hij Parijs naar jou brengt. Inclusief croissants, stokbrood, brie en rozen. En heeft hij, hoe krijgt hij het toch voor elkaar, een gestreept shirt aan -how french-, een moustache en een baret op. 

'nd that's what I call romance, nu denk ik wel twee keer na voordat ik zoiets belachelijks wil als een hopeloos romantische fransman -die ik niet waarschijnlijk niet eens zo leuk vind- als ik nu iets tien keer beters heb. 

Perfect romance part 2

Remember last year, when I wrote a post about my friend's engangementparty? I was just so blown away by all the things he did for me. And I wanted to have more nights like those, well my wish came true because yesterday it was time for my friend's wedding party. I had a wonderful night, I really did. My heels were killing my feet cause I walked to the station, with Him though, that did make it all a little better.

We danced, we laughed, we had fun and smiled to each other the whole night. I had a great night and I hope the bride did as well. I wish her all the luck and love in the world for her marriage.

I was a little doubtful about the guy, what would happen next. But as you all know it all turned out fine. You can read the story of us here. It all started at the engagementparty. Thank you!

I just hope for all of you that someday you will find the love of you life, have a beautiful wedding dress, have a lovely wedding party and spend the rest of your life together with him! Just remember that love conquers all ♥ 

The key to happiness

De sleutel tot gelukkig zijn is keuzes maken, de goede keuzes. Ik zal je nu al zeggen, als jij gelukkig wilt zijn, moet je voor jezelf gaan. Je moet kiezen voor jezelf. Waarschijnlijk zullen veel mensen nu van mij zeggen dat ik een ongelooflijke egoïstische bitch ben, maar eigenlijk maakt me dat helemaal niks uit, want ik heb wel geleerd, dat ik voor mezelf moet kiezen.

In deze maatschappij wordt het misschien beschouwd als iets dat absoluut niet kan, in vele culturen is het enorm belangrijk om het geluk van anderen voorop te zetten en voor anderen te kiezen. In China moet je bijvoorbeeld altijd zorgen voor je ouders als zij later te oud zijn om dat voor zichzelf te doen. Ik snap dat wel hoor, echt wel. Het is natuurlijk fijn als je anderen gelukkig maakt door hen te helpen. Maar weet je wat het is, je kunt anderen wel blijven helpen en verantwoordelijkheid voor hen nemen, maar uiteindelijk word je daar ontzettend moe van

The story of us

Do you remember the little story I told you guys about an engagement party from my classmate? I thought that you maybe want to know how this ended? How it is with that guy? If I still speak to him and did have more nights like those? Let me tell you first that everything's alright, with me, with him and with us. It's almost a year ago now, the engagement party and at this time The guy and me are today happily ten months together.

I will tell you our story. As you may know if you read the post, or not know, it all started at my classmate's engagement party. I was at my room in Nijmegen where I study and I was, of course, a little late because I underestimated the time I had for getting dressed and getting my hair done. So I had to hurry to get it all done on time. I also had to hurry to be on time at the train station. Of course I was a little unlucky and my train didn't ride, so I had to take a bus to Arnhem, where the party was. I had a little luck on my side, cause I did catch the bus on time. While sitting in the bus I was talking over the phone with The guy about how ridiculous we felt in our outfit in the public transportation. The guy who was sitting next to me just smiled a little scary to me and tried to look at my screen, he couldn't read what I was saying. At a given moment I started talking about dates and said I didn't have a date for that night. I didn't mean anything at all with that statement, I just hoped that he said that he didn't have a date either so that I wasn't the only one. Turned out that nobody had a date. He said to me that he already wanted to ask me to be his date for the evening but he'd rather ask me in person. I was flatterd and shocked. I mean, why me? I started blushing and I think the guy next to me definitely noticed that. I said to The guy that I almost arrived at the station where I woud meet him and a few other classmates to go to the party. So I ended the conversation and said that I would wait at the taxi place.

That's the question

The past days I have been watching Sex and the City for hours. Now I know where my view on love comes from. Where I got inspiration for my posts. And where my love for drama comes from. Everyone needs drama in their relationship. Just to keep it a little exciting. Like people need games. But how do you know when drama kills your relationship? How do you know when there is too much drama? In season 2 is Carrie talking about relationships. And she said: 'When it comes down to relationships, how do you know when enough is enough?'.

So I got that perfect idea of love and relationships from Charlotte. And the drama from rather all the girls.

I couldn't help but wonder. Is my love for drama stronger than my pursuit of perfect love?

A good year

Yeah, being sixteen was good for me. I really had a good time. Being sixteen was nice. When I was sixteen I  graduated high school almost cum laude, I did get the job I wanted to have for summer and my boss like me, I got into college and did start a study I do like, met my current love, passed all my exams for first period, had a great birthday party and got golden glitter shoes, doesn't that all sound like an amazing year? Of course this year had its ups and dows, I thought I had a depression for a few weeks, but the ups really made it all better. Sixteen was definitely a good year and I'm sure seventeen will be even better, so I can also say like the celebs on MTV; 'When I was seventeen..' 

Happy birthday to me!

Leaving home part 2

This is my new home in Nijmegen, I've been wanting to show you my room since I got the keys, but I always forgot to take pictures. It's quite small, but I think it's kinda cosy!

Time to party, again

I told you guys about the study I really wanted to do next year. I also told you that not everyone would get in. Today I got the results and I got in! I'm so freakin' happy. Just wanted to let you guys know (: Tomorrow I have to work and after Cath and I are going to Nijmegen for the 'Nijmeegse Vierdaagsefeesten'; happy thoughts!

Leaving home

I signed the lease and got the keys to my new room last Monday. It's official, I'm leaving home. I'm pretty excited to be on my own, but also a little nervous. It seems scary to be all on my own. Of course I have my room mates but it's not the same as family. So the next few weeks I will be busy moving. By the way, it's not a very big room, with a slope ceiling so it's going to be interesting to decorate the room. I am going to live in a very old house with 3 other girls, the house is above a store, so it's right in the shopping area. I'm really glad I found something and now I'm even more excited for next year to begin!  

Krystl - Leaving Home

It's all about the weekend

I'm sorry I'm quite a non active blogger now, I really thought I would have a lot more time, also to blog some more but seems like I was wrong. I just hope you don't mind too much. So let me tell you about my weekend cause I can honestly it was a really great weekend! 

Friday.

Friday was the first time I had to work. As you know, I got the job I applied for at La Place. I was quite excited cause it is my first job ever and I had no idea what they expected from me. After all it was actually pretty okay. If you want to know, I take care of the hot drinks, like coffee, tea and hot chocolate. It's not a very challenging job because I only have to press some buttons to operate the machine. I like it though, I have nice colleagues, quite friendly customers from different countries and my boss is a nice person, luckily. After work I had to go home as quick as I could to prepare everything and dress up for my graduation party. I was really glad Djamilla and her boyfriend were there to help me. The party was really nice and I had a great time, although the heels I wore were killing my feet but those shoes were absolutely worth it!

Saturday.

Saturday I had to get up early cause I had to work again. I had a nice day at work and met some new nice colleagues. When I was on my way home Cath called me to ask if I received the tickets for the Park City festival. You know what I’m talking about if you read my last news flash. If you didn’t, I won two tickets for two days for Park City Live. The thing was, people from Ticketfest, where I won the tickets, called me Thursday to ask if I was actually going and what my address was to send me the tickets. On Friday I still hadn’t received them so I was quite unsure if I actually would receive something and if, if I received them on time. When I got home, I literally ran to the mailbox to check if there was something in for me. There was one envelope in for me but I looked more like a card to congratulate me on my graduation. I opened it as fast as I could and there were all the four tickets. I contacted Cath, changed outfit and went as fast as I could to the station where I would meet Cath and her dad. When we arrived it was already after eight but those three hours were really great. We had some drinks, watched Within Temptation perform, danced on La Fuente, enjoyed every bit of the evening and had a lot of fun that night. We also met two guys, they were so freaking scary. A funny part was that when we went home, we had to go by train and we didn’t know where the station was. If we did get lost we would have missed the last train, which would be the worst case scenario that could happen on that moment. Luckily we didn’t and were home around 1am. After we got home we changed clothes, ate something and went out again.

Sunday.

Sunday was the second day of the Park City festival. I would take Samantha with me, but she felt a little sick and didn’t want to stand in the rain for the whole day. I decided to take Cath with me again. We arrived at the festival around 2pm and it wasn’t too crowded because of the rain. It did rain quite hard sometimes and the festival area was one big quagmire. I wore all stars, so you can guess what they looked at the end of the night. Notwithstanding the rain I had a great time. We laughed, danced on hardcore and Vato Gonzales, I ate fries since a really long time, saw Ilse DeLange perform, spotted some nice guys and we had the time of our lives, I know Cath did for sure in any case. It was her first festival ever and although she didn’t like Ilse DeLange, her first festival experience was a good one!

My conclusion is that it was a great weekend for sure. Now I have to go to bed because I have to get up early tomorrow for work. After work I think I will go shopping, I’m quite early done tomorrow, which is very nice when you work right in the shopping district. This morning I thought it was going to be a really boring week, apart from Rock Werchter this week, but seems like I will be busy! Tomorrow is have to work, Wednesday I have to go to Nijmegen to look for a few rooms for next year, Thursday is Werchter, by the way, you know I am going to go solo to Werchter? I know, poor me, but whatever, right? And Friday and Saturday I have to work again.

Unfortunately I didn't take photos during the Park City festival but if I spot some photos of me on the internet I will definitely share those.  

Let’s do this! 

Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year

Well, it definitely was my weekend! I had a job interview on Friday at La Place Restaurant (the food department from a warehouse called V&D), my first one ever. I got the job, I was so happy. I really didn't know what to answer on the questions to be honest, but seems like I did it pretty well for my first time. I start next Friday, I have to work from 10am till 18pm and on Saturday the same time. That means I have to prepare my graduation party earlier this week, I can't party too long and I can't go to Park City on Saturday, damn. But I have to say I'm happy I finally found a summer job. First on Thursday I was told I was graduated with really great marks, then on Friday I got the job I applied for and yesterday I had two graduation parties. It was a really nice weekend, definitely mine! And next weekend is even going to be better. My graduation party, work and the Park City festival on Sunday; happy thoughts!

Officially graduated

It was kind of obvious that I would graduate, but I wasn't sure about the grades and there was a new demand on graduating this year. It said that the average of all your grades of the subjects you take finals in, so no school exams, should be at least a 5,5. As you may know, or not know, the Dutch school system isn't hard. The lowest grade you can get is an 1 and the highest grade is a 10. Today was the day I got to hear if I was graduated, if I had to retake an exam or if I failed and had to do the year over again. My school would call between 1 and 2pm if you failed or had to retake an exam. My teacher told us that he would call everyone, just to make everything extra clear. After half an hour there were only a few who had been called, they all failed or had to retake an exam. 10 Minutes before time I was getting a little nervous, did my teacher forget me? He said he would call on alphabetical order, but there was a conversation going on, on twitter between a few classmates, and they also didn't know what the teacher was doing. So I just kept waiting. After 2pm had passed I still didn't know if I was graduated, my teacher still hadn't call and there was no list on the school website with all the persons who were graduated. On 2.15pm did my friend start talking to me on Blackberry messenger, she said the teacher called and she was graduated. After 5 minutes I received a call that I was graduated and could pick up my list with grades at school. That moment, I was so damn happy, but still a little nervous about my grades, there was a chance I would retake an exam, just to improve my grade. Luckily my grades were even better than expected and I will not retake an exam. My average of all my grades is exactly a 7,5 and I am so damn happy with that.

First summer buy of the season

I bought my first summer item from this season yesterday, a bright pink tulip skirt it is. As soon as I spotted the skirt in the online shop I didn't know how soon I had to go to a H&M to buy the skirt. It's a little hard to find some nice outfits because of the bright color, but I think it's perfect for summer. The only pity is that the fabric is a little transparent, but I could solve that problem by wearing a basic black skirt underneath it. I hope the sun will shine soon, cause I can't wait to wear this new baby!

skirt 9.95€

It's about time

Last days were fun but now it's time for some serious things in life. Friday I went to the gym to don't feel too guilty about the cocktails I had Thursday evening at prom. Friday night I went to a gig from King Jack. I joined a competition to win tickets for that gig bur I didn't win. Lucky for me, the one who did win couldn't go because he had other plans, he asked me if I wanted to go and of course, who was I to reject that offer. Unfortunately my best friend Djamilla had also other plans so she couldn't join me. I couldn't reach Elaine and when I did she told me she had to be at work early the next day. Elaine said I should ask Michelle, of course, how could I forget. Michelle didn't have plans for that evening so we went last-minute to King Jack. When we arrived the support act had just finished their performance. But oh my, King Jack was awesome. They were really doing great on stage, yes they were great live. Their appearance was also pretty great and their music was really enjoyable. Oh and they were really nice to talk to and Michelle got a new tot bag with their signatures and of course, we had to take a picture with them. Although I had still sore feet, Friday was a good day! Enough about Friday, on Saturday I did nothing and then I mean really nothing. It was a lazy day for me. Sunday evening was pretty okay. I went dancing again on Queensnight at the cafes with a few friends. Hm, yesterday was also nice. I actually worked the whole day on the 'Parkfestival' for Queensday, it's a festival organised by my old primary school. You can sell your stuff on a flea market, kids can play games and make pretty things like bracelets, you can listen to live music, see dance performances and buy loads of different kinds of food and drinks. I had a great time, it was good to see some people again from the old times. I just went to an employment agency to find a job for the summer and they would contact me later, finally there is some hope now. Oh and Chantal finally ordered a ticket for Rock Werchter so we can go together, I'm sure it's going to be even more fab than Pinkpop last year with her. Now I must go study for my exams because I have kept postponing it way too long today. And oh, I should also go to the gym, bleh, I don't want to, but hey, I didn't go for 3 days so I really must. Although, maybe I'll just go for a run after finishing studying. Enjoy this beautiful evening with still a lot of sunshine then I will go do my obligations, eventually. 

King Jack - Some Girls

Couldn't be any happier

I'm really satisfied with my life right now and personally I think you should appreciate those moments. Reasons to be happy right now:

- I am officially going to Rock Werchter. The music festival I had to attend this year, it's only one day I will go, but it's the one day I wanted to go. I'm going to see Rise Against, Blink 182, The Kooks, The Maccabees, The All American Rejects, Elbow, Skrillex, Bombay Bicycle Club, Selah Sue, Azealia Banks, Within Temptation, The Cure and many more. I'm so excited!

- I retook my English listening comprehension test and it exactly turned out the way i wanted it. I improved my note and I will start my finals with an 8 (on a scale of 1-10), isn't that great.

- I'm getting closer to my goal weight and isn't seeing results that hard work pay off one of the best feelings in the world?

- My blog finally passed the 20.000 pageviews and I am so thankful for that. Thank you all, I love you!

- The sun is shining and who isn't happy when the sun shines?

- Today was the first time in months I saw someone who was also jogging in the park, I considered it as a sign that summer is really coming and more and more people will go outside.

- Today at school I had only one class, but I didn't know. First I was kind of mad because what was I going to do for two hours? I decided to study for my finals and I'm glad I did.

- Prom is in less than a week, oh yeah!

- Finals are coming which means school is over, summer is in and it's time for a fresh new start; college.

Now I am going to change clothes and go for a nice work-out with a friend who's waiting for me at the gym.

Enjoy little things in life!

After sun - future plans

Voor de hele switch van mijn blog had ik eens wat persoonlijkers online staan, posts over mijn vervolgopleiding. Sommige deden er inspiratie uit op en ik hoop nog steeds mensen te kunnen inspireren. Namelijk, momenteel heb ik alles op een rijtje staan en zou ik jullie graag willen vertellen wat mijn plannen zijn na het behalen van mijn examen. Zoals je misschien al weet, of misschien ook niet, wil ik toegepaste psychologie gaan studeren aan de Hogeschool van Arnhem en Nijmegen in Nijmegen. Een vierjaardurige HBO opleiding waarna ik door wil stromen naar een universiteit om daar het vak helemaal af te maken. 

Waarom ga ik dan niet eerst atheneum doen om daarna in één keer naar de universiteit te gaan? Omdat ik met die strategie twee jaar van mijn leven verspil. Namelijk leer ik ten eerste twee jaar door in vakken die ik in deze opleiding gewoonweg niet nodig heb. Dit was een ander verhaal geweest als ik een economische opleiding wilde gaan doen, dan had ik zelfs misschien overwogen om nog eerste atheneum te gaan doen om me verder te verdiepen in het vak, maar aangezien er geen eisen qua vakken of profielen zijn verbonden aan de opleiding toegepaste psychologie heeft het weinig zin om nog twee jaar door te leren. 

Verder heb ik met deze strategie de ideale basis in het vak psychologie opgebouwd. Bij de opleiding toegepaste psychologie gaat het namelijk vooral om het praktische gedeelte van het vak, het toegepaste deel, logisch. Je leert theorie en die moet je gaan toepassen, de ligt nadruk dus zeker wel op praktijk. Bij de universitaire opleiding psychologie gaat het puur om vakkennis en is het merendeel kennis verwerven, een heel ander onderdeel van het vak. Als je namelijk alleen de HBO opleiding psychologie doet, toegepaste psychologie, beschik je over de vaakdigheden, maar vaardigheden zijn niks zonder kennis en vice versa. Wanneer je dus bijvoorbeeld alleen de universitaire opleiding psychologie doet kun je eigenlijk maar moeilijk ingezet worden in de praktijk omdat je alleen kennis hebt. Een combinatie van deze twee opleidingen zorgt uiteindelijk dus voor het beste resultaat in het vak en in baangarantie.

Even over iets heel anders, aangezien ik een grote fantasie heb zie ik het al helemaal voor me; stage lopen in de Verenigde Staten bij een psycholoog die relatietherapie geeft. Ja dat lijkt me helemaal geweldig, of coaching van mensen of op een school kinderen begleiden door de 'mooiste periode van hun leven'. Ja psychologie is iets waarvoor ik wil gaan!

Overigens zou ik eventueel mijn master natuurlijk ook nog in het buitenland kunnen doen aan een universiteit, mocht dat mogelijk zijn, maar dat zie ik tegen die tijd wel. 

Misschien zou het wel helpen als ik wist of ik was aangenomen. Helaas willen mijn cijfers niet meewerken, dit hangt momenteel nog volledig van centraal schriftelijk af, is de loting pas na mijn examens en krijg ik de uitslag van alles pas nog later.

Maar aangezien het een loting is en ik niet weet hoe groot de kans is dat ik ingeloot word, moet ik plan B hebben. Atheneum doen is sowieso geen optie, een jaar werken lijkt me ook niet het ideale om me op te verheugen na de vakantie en een andere opleiding wil ik liever ook niet, maar ik heb geen andere keus. Momenteel is mijn back-up pedagogie, aangezien ik geen SPH, HRM of Social Studies wil gaan doen. Laten we maar gewoon hopen dat ik word ingeloot, dan zijn er geen issues meer en is iedereen blij.

De boodschap die ik jullie eigenlijk wilde proberen mee te geven is dat je toch echt nog eens alles goed op een rijtje moet gaan zetten betreft je plannen over een vervolgopleiding zodat je niet straks halverwege het propodeuse jaar stopt met de opleiding omdat het toch niet precies was wat je zocht. Rustig maar, je hoeft nu niet te gaan stressen of je nu wel de juiste keuze hebt gemaakt, maar just so you know, beter voorkomen dan genezen. Twijfel niet aan jezelf en kies iets waarvoor je wilt gaan!

Never be the same

You know those people who are in fights with a friend constantly, and every time they say they're fed up with all the stuff and don't want to talk to them again. Well, I have one, and she's always arguing with another friend about her and her boyfriend. Last week during Carnaval when I also spent a day with the two of them, and of course her boyfriend showed up. My friend was wicked mad on her, she kept complaining about her friend's behavior and this time was really different, she promised me. She told me she didn't want to do this anymore. So I agreed with her. I have only seen the whole thing, including the boyfriend, happen once, but I can see the pattern between those two. I've tried to tell my friend what I saw was going on and back then, she agreed. But it's still the same. When she has no one to go to, she is trying to get attention from that one friend with the boyfriend. I know and I understand she wants good old times back with her. But I am absolutely sure that is never going to happen. I can get so mad about this, it's not that it affects me, but it just appeals to me and I don't want her to loose her self respect, cause now it seems like she is again. She's not somebody of her word and personally I think it's a bad thing. It's not only my friend, I'm sure there are loads of things like this one, she's just an example. The thing I want to make clear is that if you say you cut someone out of your life, you shouldn't keep going back to that person; there ought to be a good reason to ban someone out of your life. 

Edit: she forgave her again and is also talking to her again, oh lord.

Carnaval 2012

I had a really good time, I slept all day and partied all night. 5 days with Cath, non stop partying. I definitely want to do it all over again next year. We had lots of fun and enjoyed every bit of the 5days of Carnaval! Now it's time to relax and to get well soon, since I was already ill before Carnaval even started, but I'm a die hard, right, haha.

Day 1, Snow White &Natalia

Day 2, Sailor &Cath                                     Day 3, Minnie Mouse, &Cath

 

Day 5, Injun &Cath  

Unfortunately, I don't have a picture of day four, I was Minnie Mouse and Cath was a princess.

'BELIEVE'

I'm looking for a necklace. Do you know that necklace Carrie from Sex and the City always wears? The necklace with her name on it. I'm looking for something like that, but then, instead of your name the word 'believe'. I don't know why, but the past weeks I'm obsessed with the word. It's like magic. I even searched for nice pictures of tattoos, and for one moment I was even considering and thinking about it. Right there, the word 'believe' tattooed  on my right wrist. But until I'm sure I'm of anything, I want to have at least a necklace with the word. Never mind the whole story behind it, if you know where I can get one, please let me know! Oh and some pictures to show you what I mean, for the ones who have absolutely no idea where I'm talking about.

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I must, I have to, I should

There are some things in life you have to do, people around you obligate you to do it. Some other things should you do, and last, there are things you must do. Once in English class I learned the difference, I don't know if it's correct but I remember that I learned that you use must to say that you find it important to do it and you obligate yourself to do it. In that case, I think the must do's are one of the most important things in life. Like last time, I finally decided to delete someone from my life. I don't know if I made the right choice, but I was sick of all the problems he caused. I have been thinking a lot about that action, questions like: 'Should I just do it?' kept on popping into my head. But I must say, that I think I made the right decision now, maybe not in the long run, but no one knows the future, right? Never mind, I just wanted to say that you really should do the things you think you must do. Maybe they're totally unimportant, but I'm sure they will be good for something, somehow, someday. It's important that you do them. Never let anyone or anything tell you, you can't do something you want to accomplish. Don't let anyone stop you from doing things you love, or doing what you think is right for you. You know what's best for you.

Never stop believing.